Ramadhan Tears

My outstation schedule next week:
Sunday: Traveling day
Monday: Taiping
Tuesday – Friday: Penang
Friday night: Travel back to KL

I really want to try cry! Outstation schedule changed again. I’ll away from KL for one week.

BIG DILEMA whether to bring the baby along or not?

Knape perlu bawa?
1) Mawaddah menyusu badan.
2) Bulan puasa ni, susu semakin kurang, so kalau bawa mawaddah, malam2 at least ada baby menyusu & as long as ada stimulation, insyallah susu won’t stop. Kalau aku pergi sorang, confirm la malam-malam takkan bangun memerah.
3) Mawaddah tak pernah tidur dengan orang lain
4) Mawaddah akan menangis bila orang lain yang jaga termasuk uwan & atok kl.

5) Takut mawaddah ngamuk malam2 coz tek Mama tade ngan dia

Drawbacks kalau bawa:
1) Husband kene amik cuti seminggu.
2) Husband need to let go his outstation to Kuantan for 2 days and one night
3) Husband kene jaga dua-dua anak. Kesian, malam-malam kene bangun buat susu untuk Mawaddah. Kesian, tak dapat bersolat ke masjid. Kesian, kene makan nasi bungkus. Kesian, kene cuci baju anak2

Drawbacks kalau tak bawa:
1) Aku sunyi dan terlalu rindukan anak-anak & suami.
2) Asyik teringat anak. Tak boleh concentrate kerja & driving. Bahaya ni!
3) Susu badan mungkin boleh stop due to no stimulation on nights. Mawaddah keliru putting. Ee takut. Kalau jadi gini confirm my goal to breastfeed her until 2 years old takkan achieve!

Air mata dah bercucuran sambil menaip ni. Ya Allah, berilah kekuatan & penyelesaian